February 2013

It’s a tough month for me. Rudy’s birthday was 13th and Valentines the 14th. Used to be the month was full of birthday parties, all we have left is the memories.

Seems like there are not enough hours in the day to get much done, hardly ever get any crafting done. I need to make a schedule and have a craft day each week for me. 

I do help the ladies at my Mom’s apartments do some crafting, mainly decorations / cards for the different holidays.

Hoping to get them scrapping soon!

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Where does time go?

Here it’s late October already and I have no clue where the days, weeks or months go. Time flies right past me.
Missing Rudy, at the same time trying to find myself. This is not what we had planned for this time in our life.
Life can be cut short and there’s nothing you can do to stop it.
Live each day to the fullest and make lasting memories to leave behind.
Some days it feels like this is just a dream and I will wake up and Rudy will still be here with me.

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March and Spring!

Time flies by so quickly these days! I hope winter weather is over and spring is upon us. Would like to get out of the house and into fresh air, that is if the wind/dust storms stop!

Have alot of winter clean-up in the yard to do, it’s going to take me forever!

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Viet Nam Veterans and Agent Orange

I promised Rudy I’d continue fighting for GBM-4 to be accepted by the VA as being caused by Agent Orange from when he served in Viet Nam  in 70/71.

I’m trying to work on this at least one day a week. Weekly I find more names to put on the list of Nam Vets that have been diagnosed with GBM-4 Brain Cancer.

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Life will never be the same!

Since Rudy passed away on 12-10-2011, it’s been really stressful around here.

Each day brings another day focusing on life without him.

No one really ever wants to think ahead of what the next day brings us.




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Stressful Time!

On Tues. afternoon we went to Spokane for Rudy’s Gammaknife on Wed. morning because we’d been told he had a new brain tumor. After they did MRI, we found out he actually has 2 new brain tumors.
We now have to wait a month for the next MRI to find out if Gammaknife and Avastin Infusions are working on the 2 new tumors.

It was a very long day for us and stressful!

I’m told God does not give us more than we can handle, but I’m beginning to wonder right now!

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How do you handle stress?

We’ve had almost 17 months of total stress since Rudy’s diagnosis of Glioblastoma Multiforme Stage 4 Brain Cancer. (GBM-4)

Each of us is handling it differently and it seems to be changing our family network. Emotions are very high, sadness and anger seems to be taking hold of all of us!

Right now we live one day at a time.

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